10th World Suicide Prevention Day: (
Jiv Diunk Ievjiteleank Dhuklopachem Nhoi)
Jiv
Diunk Ievjiteleank Dhuklopachem Nhoi
“Zori konn tori eklean atmghat vo
suicide korpacho dukhinn ievjita mhonn tuka sanglem tedna, tunvem tea vellar
tanchea vicharancher gombhir panvll utthavpapak zai. Tuzo kosloch nirnnoi di
nastanam xevott meren tachem vo tichem aikun, jiv vogddavpachea poristithik
sampodlela mon’xak favo to ilaz mellunk adar korunk zai. Jivitak nirxellea ani
kosleach bhorvonxeachi kunna nam zatoch monis aplo jiv vogddaunk chinta. Manxik
gonddoll (mental disorder) tann ghoddnuko (stressful events)
mottea luksanan bondkonnint pavoitele dhondde, ghorchim bhattanchim kizilam ani
choddan chodd jiv divpachim karann mhonnlear mogachea khellan arr khailelim.
Zori konnui-i, ap-khuxen to vo tem aplo atmghat korpachi bhirankull poristithi
tujea samkara ubzonn korta tedna, tea vellar tunvem ogem ranvchem nhoi.
Tabortob pulis thannar fon korcho ani zata titlo jiv ditelea piddestak tacho
jiv vattoupak adhar korcho.”
Somajik
vavurpi amche ixtt Lapitt, kalchea sumanant ganvchea “Parish Youth Club” hannim
ghoddun haddlelea ‘What should you do if someone tells
you they are thinking about suicide’ hea vixeai vixim xibir bhorlelem
tattunt to uloitalo. Gõyant hotea-chi (suicide) bhatmeo antrea poirean
disamleancher vachunk melltat. Gõyant margai vaddlea punn jiv mat sovai zaleat
distat.
Suman
odik zalem vaddoll-moll zavn ghosghoxeanim pavs zhoddunk laglear. Ghora
bhair gelea xivai ghora bhailim kama zai naslim. Thambum nastanam zhoddtelea
pavsan Lapitt-achem ek suman oxench bekar gelem. Pavsak lagun ghorantlo bhair
sorum nastanam ravop mhonnchem ghorant jevnnam-khannacho unnav poddpacho.
Udka
viret nistem jienam ani Lapitt-ak nistea viret jevonn ruchonam. Nisteachea
bazarant vochot zalear tazem nistem melltelem vo nam ho ek motto husko taka
zal’lo. Bhurgeank tori chikon, gaichem mas, mutton-kima ani yer vostu haddunk
mhonn to Moddganvchea bazarant vochunk bosir choddlo.
Hatantli
sotri koulun laginch aslelea rikami sitar boslo. Uzvea bazuk bosun aslelea
tornatti choliek polloun tannem mhonnlem.
“Kitlo
mhunn thambum nastanam pavs….”
“Pavsachea
disanim pavs nhoi tor uzo rokhttolo.” Cholien tikxealea avazan mhonnlem.
Te on-vollkhi (stranger) cholie
koddsun osli zap mellteli mhonn Lapittan matui chintunk nam. Matxe abuz choli
distali. Tannem fuddem vicharlem.
“Khoim vetalem bai?”
“Jiv diunk.” Jiv ken’na diupcho ho vell
chinti nastanm tinnem mhonnlem.
Tichi zap aikun Lapitt-che mendvacheo xiiro
zagrutt zaleo. Atmghat korpachim kharannam ani tancher tabo dovorpacho upai
gelea sumanant zal’lea xibirant Lapitt-an aplem bhaxonn dilelem asa. Ani aiz khorelo
monis tachea samkara bosun jiv diupachem ievjita. Somzikaecho upai vaprun tika
somadan korchelem taka dislem. Aikoch nam zalear, zobordosten tika pulis-echea
tabean korchem hem monant dovorun, tika fuddem vicharlem.
‘Punn
kiteak?”
“Zhodd
zala. Do you have any problem?”
“Svami
Jezu Khristacho khuris Simanv oslea mon’xamni aplea khanddar ghetlolo asa.
Tujea zhodd zalelea jivitak lohu korunk konn tori visvaxi monis melltolo.”
“Visvaxi?
Visvasan, hea sonvsarant zolm ghetlolo nam. Soglech ghatki zolmoleat”
“Tuzo
ghatt konnem ghetlo?”
“Mhojea
bhavan.”
“Koso?”
“Hanv
ani mhozo boyfriend kal sanjer dogaim, ekuch bottlint don straws
bhitor ghalun cold drink pietanam mhojea bhavan pollelem mista. Tannem
vochun mhojea avoik sanglem. Avoi-n mhaka zoddpailem ani bodoilem.”
“Argam
Devak bai.”
“Kiteak?”
“Ginean
aslolo tuzo bhav to. Tannem tuka, tujea boyfriend-a sangata ekuch
bottlint don straws ghalun pietanam tumkam pollelim. Tea vellar masuge
mon’xa porim kainch ek zap kaddi nastanam ghora vochun tuji kornni tumchea avoik
sangli. Dusro anik konnui-i bhav zalolo zalear bhoinniche polle novrea samkara
dodhoitalo aslo. Loka samkara apli izott kaddli mhonn bhoinnink vaitt dista
aslem. Ani nikall? Lojen jiv dista aslem? Hoi? Punn tujea bhavan toxem
kelem nam. Tuji kornni tujea avoi samkara eka vhodd bhavachea kaidea pormonnem
dovorli.”
Tinnem
apli nodor bosintlea zonelantlean bhair ghali. Kitloch vell tinnem zap keli
nam. Punn Lapitt odik tika somzunnechem vicharan prons kelo.
“Tuzo
bhav kitlo vhodd.”
“Madda
itlo lamb asa.”
“Tachim
lambai hanv vichari nam. Tachi vorsam.”
“Ponchvis”
“Ani
tuka ottra sumar asat nhi?’
“
Nam . Sola vorsam”
“Sweet
sixteen. Tuka ekttoch bhav?”
“
Nam . Mhaka anik ek lhan bhav asa.”
“Ekttich bhoinn tum?”
“Oi”
“Bapui?”
“To somplear panch vorsam somplim. Avoi asa.”
“Zannam
hanv.”
“Tuka
koxem ghomlem?”
“Tujea
bhavan kagall (complain) avoik kelelem nhoi?”
“Humm!!!”
“Polle
bai. Bapui somplea uprant lhan bhoinnim-bhavamchea sukha khatiruch bapaicho
zago ani ghorachi zababddari mogacho vhoddlo bhav aplea khanddar gheta ani
aplea avoik mozot korta. Tuzo bhav ek vhodd mahan monis. Kalchea disa tum,
tujea nhovrea sangata astanam, tannem tuka kainch mhonntlelem nam. Hem tunvem chintpa sarkem aslem”
Lapitt-achem ulounnem challu astanam tinnem
Lapitt-achea hatak dorlo. Pavsa bhoxenuch tichea dolleantlean dukham vhanvunk
laglim. Thoddo vell adim tichem mukhamoll, ragachi kit distali ti pavsachea
udkan pusun gelea vori zalem. Tinnem aple dolle Lapitt-chea dolleank
melloile ani mhonnlem.
"I
am sorry Mr......."
“Boro
Samaritan mhonnlear zata.” Ani dogaim hanslim.
Bos,
Moddganvchea Kadambha prasar pavli. Dogaim bosintlim denvlim. Tichea lagim sotri nasli. Lapitt-an tika aplea sotren
ghetli. Pavsan bhiztta mhonn, ti choli, taka veng marun chollunk lagli. Lapitt-achea
kallza bhitor bhiranticho dodddoddlo suntlo. Konnui-i pollelear ani hi khobor
bailek ghomlear? Tannem chondrar vochpachi tikett kaddcheli asli. Ek rickshaw
baddeak ghetli ani Dev Spirit Santa-chea Igorjent vochpache vattek lagli.
“Polle
cheddva. Tunvem ek vhodd patok haddarlem. Jiv divpachi ievzonn ek chintnachem
patok mhonntoch tunvem ek borem kumsar kelelem mhaka zai. Atam tuka hanv mhojea
ek padri ixtta sorxim vortam. To, oslea kesinim onnbhovlolo asa. To tuka bori
budd ditolo….ani” Rickshaw, Dev Spirit Santache igorjexim pavlo ani
Lapitt-acho padri ixtt durga davorteaxim, tankanch ravtelea bhoxen thoim
mell’lo.
Lapitt
ghora portotanam monantlean khup khos zal’lo distalo. Kalchea sumanantlea
xibirant tannem jiv vattoupacho bhaxonn dilelem punn aiz tannem khaxea eka
monis zaticho jiv vattailo. Konnui-i monis atmghat korunk vheta tedna taka
dukhollun udoupachi goroz nasta punn jiv vattoupachem hi ek mat khoreli
khuxeakai Lapitt-ak dislem.
Pavsan
tache angavele kopdde purai bhizlele ani taka thonddi kosi lagleli. Ghorant
bhitor sortanch tannem almarint hat ghatlo ani cazu feniechi botl kaddun ek peg
sumar glasant ottoilo. Feniecho ghontt ghetanam tannem aple dhaktte dhuvek
vicharlem.
“Mama khoim gelea?”
“Jiv divpak.”
Feniecho ghontt tonddantuch aslo.
Bhurgeanchi avoi jiv divpak gelea, hem aikonam fuddem burr korun
tonddantlo soro bhair poddlo. Moddganvchea prasar mhojea sotren aslelea
cheddvachi ghozal hika konnem sangli kai? To monantlean udgarlo ani
veg-vegim nhidchea rumant gelo. Dar ugttench aslem ani bail dolleant dukham
bhorun bedir bosun asli. Bedir jivi aslele bailek polloun Lapitt-cho
voir sorlolo jiv zagear ailo. To rumant bhitor sortanch tinnem CD chalu keli.
“Tuka
hanvem hozar pavtti ugddas kela tuje ixttinink amchea koddsun pois ravunk sang
mhonn. Tumchi amizad kolej xiktannam. Atam tum kazari, dogam bhurgeancho ani
kusvean novo jiv gheteleacho bapui. Klass tticher zalear kitem zalem? Amchea
dakhttea porak margeleo chokleti diun tuji ixttagott porot zhoddunk sodhta
kitem ti? Ani oxem ghoddlem zalear, hanv mhozo jiv ditelim.”
Ghora bhair uzo pallounk ekdom sopem punn apleach ghorak
dubhavacho uzo laglolo pallounk ekdom kothinn mhonn aiz Lapitt-ak sidh zalem.
Lino B.
Dourado
Lapitt
10 Septembr 2012
